saturday isn't always good

saturday always be my bad day .. even though i'm single or have a couple.. still looking for some food by my self, eating lonely with some boring television program, and watching my neighbor's dating.. i tell you : it really really makes you feel alone !

alone ??

oh yes i am alone..

my friends back to their hometown..getting along with their family, their boyfriend, their friend..and i'm being freaky sitting alone in this situation.. trap with stuck situation.. i try hard to pass every saturday or holiday in Surabaya.. i hate weekend ! my BF lives in surabaya too but it feels like he lives here but i live in Wamena ..@,@ (oopss..)

okay let me tell you know guys that i'm a jealous girl.. haaha..yeah but that's the fact.. for me relationship is consist of two important things : HONESTY and LOYALTY .. and for me (again) i hope the feed back happen in me.. honesty make us feel that we are (as their couple) confessed and loyalty make the honest,trust appears. emmmmhh.. it's so hard for me..i really really love my BF but .. he over careless how to keep my feeling .. it doesn't matter for me..i'm a big girl and big girls don't cry (thx fergie :D )..but sometimes i come to some level that i couldn't annoying it, then make me sad..mad..lonely or another negative feelings..blowing on my mind..mixing it with ego and fighting with my brain..
so here i am .. now i'm in that bad bad situation.. saturday oh saturday.. when you will bring nsome happiness for me.. like other girl has.

nb: my love one and me ..

*super human*