sedih

gimana rasanya jadi sampah di kehidupan orang lain?

gimana rasanya dibuang dalam "tempat sampah"?

apa saya cuma sampah ?

atau memang saya memang pantas dimasukkan dlm "tempat sampah"?

apa saya sebuah kesalahan yang pernah datang buat anda?

saturday isn't always good

saturday always be my bad day .. even though i'm single or have a couple.. still looking for some food by my self, eating lonely with some boring television program, and watching my neighbor's dating.. i tell you : it really really makes you feel alone !

alone ??

oh yes i am alone..

my friends back to their hometown..getting along with their family, their boyfriend, their friend..and i'm being freaky sitting alone in this situation.. trap with stuck situation.. i try hard to pass every saturday or holiday in Surabaya.. i hate weekend ! my BF lives in surabaya too but it feels like he lives here but i live in Wamena ..@,@ (oopss..)

okay let me tell you know guys that i'm a jealous girl.. haaha..yeah but that's the fact.. for me relationship is consist of two important things : HONESTY and LOYALTY .. and for me (again) i hope the feed back happen in me.. honesty make us feel that we are (as their couple) confessed and loyalty make the honest,trust appears. emmmmhh.. it's so hard for me..i really really love my BF but .. he over careless how to keep my feeling .. it doesn't matter for me..i'm a big girl and big girls don't cry (thx fergie :D )..but sometimes i come to some level that i couldn't annoying it, then make me sad..mad..lonely or another negative feelings..blowing on my mind..mixing it with ego and fighting with my brain..
so here i am .. now i'm in that bad bad situation.. saturday oh saturday.. when you will bring nsome happiness for me.. like other girl has.

nb: my love one and me ..

*super human*

harvard i'm in love

hai,,hello everybody.. good afternoon by WIB time x)

well i'll always say that it was so long that i didn't wrote in this site.. yeap facebook.. twitter already messed up and blow my idea to share something.. let say i forget how to telling you guys about my silly day hehe.

hmmm.. yesterday i watched a movie.. "social network" with my dear (read: dear not deer!), okay this movie was so made my brain cramps for 2 hours.. this guy Mark Zuckerberg (Jesse Eisenberg) was so so so brilliant.. actually i don't really know about the movie is .. they talked about technology, calculus or something cruelly number (on my head).. but they offered something in it.. HARVARD .. god dam* !! i can felt the atmosphere of HARVARD.. their life..their life style..hmmm and one thing i found someone who is has a same major with me : Eduardo Saverin (Andrew Garfield). AAAAAAAAAAAARRGHH zeus help me !!

okay back to my story.. Eduardo is a student in business major..head of investor in their campus..my god! (again) he can counting about the investment without calculator or even sucks financial calculator... he count it by his brain.. count..act..and make decisions for their company.. he was cool ..really i do.. my BF said i get my interest with him because his handsomeness.. (yeah a little bit) but far from that, i really really crazy about eduardo's brain..eduardo's chance school in harvard university : economic major B) viva economic !! ^^

finally my assessment about "soci (social network) is 5 from 7.. i recommended for you who major in technic or computer major..it can motivate you to found innovation like Zuckerberg did..
okay.. have fun guys

nb: my BF majoring in computer control as long as this movie played he always said " pinter ya ni orang" =)

1st of all.. happy new year 2011 semuanyaaa.. walah ga terasa ya hari bergulir cepet banget..oke sehubungan dengan tahun yg baru, semestinya juga ada resolusi baru dan semangat baru..ada pacar baru juga sepertinya :p ..

tanggal 1januari 2011 saya terbangun di pagi hari tanpa resolusi hidup untuk setahun kedepan..bad?o yeah really bad.. tanggal 2januari 2011 tidak ad perubahan samapi akhirnya saya nonton acara rachel ray..disitu jd tmp inspirasi dadakan..ada orang bule di luar sono yg ternyata bernasib sama ama gw..bangun di taun baru tanpa tujuan idup apapun..

Pada intinya si dia akhirnya belajar dari buku..12 ahli di 12 elemen2 hidup..kayak nabung.. terus ngurus anak..belajar lebih sabar..olahraga dll.. yaaa mungkin bisa saya tiru..jadi ada semangat baru ni buat 12 bulan kedepan..

untuk 2011 si punya pepatah jadi2an yg berhasil keluar saat nongkrong di kamar mandi.. face all your fearness ! yap..2011 bakal jd waktu saatnya ngadepin semua yg jadi ketakutan gw di 2010..skripsi..wawancara kerja, dan hal hal lain yg ga bisa saya share di blog ini..so my followers doakan semoga saya bs nyampe resolusi gw tahun ini..amin..sukses juga buat kalian..semoga punya resolusi idup buat 2011..happy new year all!!! :D

sedikit tentang kita :)

hari ini 31 Oktober 2010.. saat saat dimana saya merindukan dengan sangat sosok seseorang.. seseorang yg mampu membawa air mata dan rasa sukacita.. angka 11 menjadi angka bisu yg jadi saksi diantara Kami.. Kami yg tidak bersatu .. kami yg dipertemukan Tuhan untuk mengakui bahwa kami berbeda..

Aku tau kamu yg addict dengan rasa manis
Aku yg ingat jam2 tidur mu
Aku dengar semua yg kamu rasakan
Aku yg diam ketika terdengar suara mu di ujung telepon sana
Aku yg membelokkan badan saat kamu mulai merokok
Aku yg terkadang mencuri memandangmu
Aku yg hafal semua gerakanmu
.. dan ..
Aku yg menyayangi mu seakan2 sayang ini adalah sesuatu yg absolut



apa boleh aku bercerita isi hati ku?

saat bersamanya memang saat yg menyenangkan..saat sesuatu menghangatkan hatiku dengan ajaibnya..namun terkadang aku merasa.. aku takut kehilangan kamu.. aku takut suatu saat kita tdk bisa seperti ini lagi.. aku takut apa yg mereka bilang tentang kita menjadi doa dan bumerang untuk kita... terkadang gelombang bimbang ini besar sekali sayang.. terkadang yg ku tau adalah kita.. terkadang lagi yg ku tau adalah aku atau kamu.. biarkanlah saja waktu yg bekerja untuk cerita kita.. biarkanlah semua yg terjadi menjadi sebuah alarm dalam periode umurku.. sakit, senang,bimbang, tangis, bahagia, cemburu, kehangatan, nakal dan kemanjaan ini ku simpan dalam hidupku sebagai kenangan antara kita.. yg ku panjatkan sekarang adalah semoga Tuhan selalu berada disamping kita..meski dalam 2 wujud yg berbeda..

masa sulit

bohohoho happy Idul fitri..Ied Mubaraq for all my friends..

after a long long holiday i haven't write here again..so busy with my new tweeter --> ceteriz_paribuz (you can follow it, kindly regards :D )

well.. i want to share something funny about my true life... funny,foolish,stupid,smiling,crying ..

let me speak in Indonesia please..

jadi tepat seminggu yg lalu gw dapet sebuah special inbox dari seseorang bernama Ms. A (kita panggil saja begitu,karna cowoknya-mantannya berada di follower blog gw wekekekek) .. iya jadi ms.A ini mendamprat gw biar lupain cowoknya..suatu luka, borok, aib..tapi mari kita liat dari sisi keborokan (haaa apaa itu).. seumur idup gw baru pertama kali tuh gw didamprat cewek merebutin pacarnya..eh eh ga pertama ding..kedua..yg pertama dulu jaman sd dimana gw diancam nyawa (waaa lebih parah men..mainannya nyawa untk ukuran anak sd jaman kebo ireng) hahahhaha..sama seperti kasus pertama, kasus pendampratan kedua ini seperti bau tai kebo yang ilang gitu aja,nguap terbawa angin kentut gw (bauan kentut gw soalnya ehehe).

pendek cerita..
kalo mau jujur-jujuran yaa bisa dibilanglah sakit..uhuk uhuk sakiiittt (tangan gw kejepit pintu nii..sakiittt tolloonggg!!!) tapi yaa beginilah gue.. kembali menjalani kehidupan abnormal gw..menurut agan agan sodara sodara sekalian ni ya...salah gak sih gue yg tidak segera hengkang kaki dari kehidupan si cowok ini ???? beneran nanya ini..yg jawabannya paling pas alasannya akan mendapatkan 1box psp dari paddle pop (hahahhaha lo ambil ndiri ye dari paddle pop) ..tapi beneran ni kali ini gw mengharapkan interaksi dari para follower follower gue tersayang tercintah.. i need ur idea please.. ogut tunggu,thx b4.

darius danesh - colour blind

Feeling blue
When I'm trying to forget the feeling
That I miss you

Feeling green
When the jealousy swells and it won't
Go away in dreams

Feeling yellow
I'm confused inside a little hazy but mellow
When I feel your eyes on me

Feeling fine, sublime
When that smile of yours
Creeps into my mind


Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colourblind
You make me colourblind

Feeling red
When you spend all your time with your friends
And not me instead

Feeling black
When I think about all of the things that
I feel I lack

Feeling jaded
When it's not gone right
All the colours have faded
Then I feel your eyes on me

Feeling fine, sublime
When that smile of yours
Creeps into my mind


Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colourblind
You make me colourblind

Blinded by the light you shine
The colours fade completely
Blinded by you everytime
I feel your smile defeat me
I'm colourblind
I just can't deny this feeling

Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colourblind

Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colourblind
(your the light
your the light
when i close my eyes)
You make me colourblind

(your the light
your the light
when i close my eyes)
you make me colorblind

(your the light
your the light
when i close my eyes

i'm colorblind)